Some people save you

...even if at a distance.

thank you dear Ania

It's here

' And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.'

In Maia's room

Being happy is being healthy

More than one week in bed, facing horrible back pain, numbed once in a while with the help of drugs.

Trying not to fail and cave in the arms of frustration, thinking what is the lesson i can take out of it.

I miss my simple life.
I miss doing the dishes and going to the supermarket.
I miss writing letters and drinking apple cider with friends while talking bad things about lovers and the general lack of money.

I miss getting up in the morning and making my own breakfast and being able to take a bath without needing nobody to help me stand up.

I miss taking pictures and dancing naked and walking while looking at the sky.

Being happy is loving your body and not feeling lost in pain inside of it like a ghost in a empty shell.

I have faith that soon i will feel free and sane.

Pray for me, friends.