12.03.2013

Charles explains it all on my behalf



'(...) They call it "9 to 5." It's never 9 to 5, there's no free lunch break at those places, in fact, at many of them in order to keep your job you don't take lunch. Then there's OVERTIME and the books never seem to get the overtime right and if you complain about that, there's another sucker to take your place.


You know my old saying, "Slavery was never abolished, it was only extended to include all the colors."

And what hurts is the steadily diminishing humanity of those fighting to hold jobs they don't want but fear the alternative worse. People simply empty out. They are bodies with fearful and obedient minds. The color leaves the eye. The voice becomes ugly. And the body. The hair. The fingernails. The shoes. Everything does.

(...) To not to have entirely wasted one's life seems to be a worthy accomplishment, if only for myself.'



        excerpt from a Charles Bukowski's letter to his publisher 
You can read it all here


After 8 years in a job that brought me pennies but a lot of unhappiness i gave my 60 days notice and fired myself.
I'm on a sick leave so i will never go back to that office,to that feeling.
I cried out of relief,feeling free for the first time in a long time.
There are no certainties but i'm willing to fail and to succeed.
I know that i will have to deal with  'you are crazy' expressions on so many faces but i'm ready.
Now i am ready.

26 comentários:

  1. oh, Sara... that was brave and very good! O know what it feel to be working at a place that makes you totally unhappy - i never lasted that many years, though- so congratulations for the courage to face new stages of life, and for accepting what the future might bring. I don't think you are crazy. I'm sure you appreciate your life and want to find something better!

    (btw, Bukoswski's text is quite poignant and heartbreakingly true)

    On a side note, I can't wait to receive your letter! Sadly the post office in Argentina in on strike for undetermined time. So I will have to be very patient and keep waiting until those guys decide to bring me that sweet envelope!

    Happy wednesday and get well soon!

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    1. Argentina and Australia are the two countries where i seem to find more problems in delivering mail :/
      hope it arrives at all,Toi send me some letters that never made it here!
      i hope to have my heart always with hope,thank you for your words,Vix!

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  2. Excellent excerpt - reading words like reminds me why I choose to do what I do even if it's not big money.

    You will succeed, Sara. :)

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    1. thank you for being here with me,Katie*

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  3. working at a place that does not fit makes you sick for the long term. so i can only endorse your decision! When I left my last job, I also cried of relief, I did not go because I did not like it, but for other complicated reasons. I will every remember that day standing in the middle of the city - feeling like a prisoner seeing the sunlight again.

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  4. so happy to read you found the courage for this big decision. it's a gift. and the best ones are those you allow to make yourself. enjoy you new life!

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    1. Thank you so much for the support,Rike!

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  5. I love the self portraits here, Sara!
    And now I have to tell you, I really admire you for finally taking such a huge step! I had never had a stable job in my life and some time I feel like I'd love to have that feeling of routine... but I also understand how claustrophobic and repressive that could be. I am sure you're going to feel better from now on! Well done! ♥

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  6. Brave Sara! I admire that you have the courage to leave a job that's not making you the happy that you should be. Bukowski's excerpt is making me think about the emptiness that imprisons us, this inspiration may give me courage as well when I need it :)

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    1. thank you for the support,Damaris <3

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  7. Lindo o auto-retrato. A expressão de alguém que está mais do pronto para enfrentar o que quer que aí venha :)

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  8. congratulations- such a brave thing to do!

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  9. You are definitely not crazy! You are awesome :) Good luck!!!

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  10. Oh congratulations! That is a brave thing to do, and I'm 100% certain you won't regret it. ENJOY!! :)

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  11. sometimes it`s not easy to be brave, but the thing is done, my congrats!

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  12. wonderful, you go girl!

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  13. Congrats, hon! It seems like you so sorely needed it and I am glad you did it. To be relieved from any situation that you feel locked into is such a cathartic and wonderful feeling. I wish you the best of luck, and thanks for being so confident to share your feelings on your blog with us :)

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    1. Thank you for the support Anna, i really feel 'huged' here in the blog,even it sounds silly!

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