Charles explains it all on my behalf

'(...) They call it "9 to 5." It's never 9 to 5, there's no free lunch break at those places, in fact, at many of them in order to keep your job you don't take lunch. Then there's OVERTIME and the books never seem to get the overtime right and if you complain about that, there's another sucker to take your place.


You know my old saying, "Slavery was never abolished, it was only extended to include all the colors."

And what hurts is the steadily diminishing humanity of those fighting to hold jobs they don't want but fear the alternative worse. People simply empty out. They are bodies with fearful and obedient minds. The color leaves the eye. The voice becomes ugly. And the body. The hair. The fingernails. The shoes. Everything does.

(...) To not to have entirely wasted one's life seems to be a worthy accomplishment, if only for myself.'

        excerpt from a Charles Bukowski's letter to his publisher 

You can read it all here

After 8 years in a job that brought me pennies but a lot of unhappiness i gave my 60 days notice and fired myself.
I'm on a sick leave so i will never go back to that office,to that feeling.
I cried out of relief,feeling free for the first time in a long time.
There are no certainties but i'm willing to fail and to succeed.
I know that i will have to deal with  'you are crazy' expressions on so many faces but i'm ready.
Now i am ready.